PEACE BE UPON YOU
love-hate relationship you had with your sisters and siblings somehow brings you closer to each other. I remember growing up with three other sisters and we hated each other every single day. when we wanted to play 'masak-masak' or 'doktor-doktor', we will reconcile and focus on our character. once the play is over, we will always find our way back to be enemies and started a war. lets face it that is what most siblings in this world do right? right? at the end of the day, i love my sisters more than i love kari (curry).
now, I have reach the age where every single thing is a freaking serious matter, I supposed that my sisters know of the fact that we are no longer little a girl. if we play 'masak-masak', real fire and real food are involved. we rarely talk about our feelings because we spent most of our time fighting over small issues and laugh upon it later. well, at least there is an improvement on how we handle our arguments. one day after another, we suddenly turn into adults and our talks have become more about how can we create a better future.
without us realizing it, my sister and I have the exact same mission and vision of how we want our life to be in the future despite the fact that we are two absolutely different people in and out. totally different. she is what I am not and I am what she is not. my parents have more headache trying to take care of me more than other sisters although I am the eldest among four. probably because I want to do everything myself and I love to explore everything since I have no elder siblings that can be my lab rat (LOL). yes, if you are the eldest among your siblings, you are a lab rat. medium of experiments. but worry not because you will always get to do things that other siblings can't or not allowed to. even if we, the eldest, were not allowed to do something, we still do it anyway because we were born first and the first always get what they want (even without permission). LOLOL!
I suppose, every family have their ups and downs. no family is free from dramas once a while. so does my family. no family is in call for perfection because only through flaws we learn to improvise and make changes into something better. hopefully. from all of this flaws, my sisters and I learnt to take note of how our future family should be. both of us want the exact same thing. every single decision that we make in our life is one step closer on how we mold our future. if we want a better future we need to choose wisely. even if we made the wrong choice, we need to learn from our mistake quickly.
whatever plan that my sister and I have in our heads, shows that she is not adopted. *insert laughter*. at least I can confirm that we are from the same blood. I'm glad that I am not alone while walking on this world. whenever she told me that it is not easy for her to go through something, I told her that I am also at your place right now. day in day out longer than what you are going through. if I managed to survive and still managing to survive, my sister, you too will survive. we are of the same blood, we probably have the exact same endurance level more or less lah. all I can say is don't ever give up on your prayers and du'a. don't ever. if we feel like we cannot fight for something by our strength, remember that we can fight for anything in our du'a. if something is meant for us, it will be ours eventually. always work hard on making ourselves better than who we are few seconds ago.
on behalf of all the eldest around the world, or at least Malaysia la kan, younger sisters and brothers, we will always have your back, side, front and top. your kakak and your abang will always be a text away or a call away or a room away from you. we will never leave you hanging. we will always be your lab rat so that you don't have to be anyone else's lab rat. we will risk ourselves for trial and error so that our little brothers and sisters can have the right cleanser for their face, the best university to register in, and we will turn all craps into rainbows for you. we will always address each other with absurd names but we only allow each other to do that. to my sisters aleeya, aisya, dinan, kakak sort of lah loves you. tapi korang jangan annoying sangat boleh? but still kakak loves you.
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