LIFE AS IT IS

.PEACE BE UPON YOU.

It feels good at times to tap these fingers for the blog. Very funny how I find blogging still relevant even after other social media swamped the internet. I guess something about blogging that makes me feel like there is still me in there somewhere. When looking back at my previous post, knowing that life isn't that bad after all. Every time I feel like my world is falling apart, this space reminds me that, soon everything will be okay again.

As Im writing right now, I have to admit. This is probably one of those entry which I wrote due to a life decision that I have no idea how to maneuver. I always know what I want. That is one thing about me that Im always proud of. Even when I made bad decisions in life, at least those decisions were once what I believe in. Have you been in a point of your life where you just lost direction of what is it you want in life. Everything was planned before your eyes and suddenly, you just don't know anymore. Or mayyybe sometimes you think you are finally doing something right but nothing is moving into places. 

I think that is just how life is. I think everyone once went through this phase in their life. Trying to figure out or wonder where your dreams are going. I think like me, you were once torn in between two road and you just stood there in the middle. never wanting to make any move because not moving is better than making another mistake. I think at another point, we are tired of making mistake. And by trying not to make one, we end up making a few anyway. I think that is just how life is.

Out of all those lucky people out there, I also feel that I am one of them. There are moments in our life where God grant those beautiful people so that you won't be alone when you need as much strength as possible to get through the trouble that you get yourself into. I feel lucky because I was given a man (of course other than my dad! duhh) with the utmost perfection to complement my flaws at the most perfect timing ever. And my prayers go to him every night before I sleep for being able to withstand a woman who is equally crazy like any other women in this world (lol!)(Come on, women are all different but our craziness are in an equal dose). And darn it! if I have to write another sentence about him, I might shed tears because at this moment, about 2.30 am in the morning, I love him more than ever. I think that is just how life is. You fall in love.

With all the love you receive from the world, you fear that your decision/s will affect people that you love so much. With all the dreams that you want to achieve, I am fully aware that there are few adjustment I have to make. You can't have everything in the world darling. I once told myself that I can have what I one without sacrificing anything if I work on it. But life as it is, it won't allow you to do that. Maybe in the most freakiest way ever, life is a machine. It was designed in a certain way and you can't simply unscrew the bolt hoping that the machine will work the same way as it used to be. I think that is just how life is. 

Im at my last paragraph now and I still have no idea on what is my next move. Maybe I will figure out later but it makes me feel better when I am able to write. To my Redha, if you stumble upon this, I hope you know that every time I keep things away from you, only because I have no strength anymore to let it out. Even if i have to, you would probably notice that it comes with tears. And I hate it so much when you have to see me cry. Always remember, at this very moment, you are one of the best decision I made in life. 

Enough of everything. The world is miserable enough, I'll gather strength to make life a wonderful journey. After all, this is just what life is. Just like what happen in the past, this too shall pass.