.PEACE BE UPON YOU.
"the beginning of love is to let those we love to be perfectly themselves, and not to twist them to fit our own image. otherwise, we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them."
Writing on this blog has always given me that voice of reason. Mainly to remind me that the world and life as a whole are not butterflies and rainbows. As I grow older, life gets much more complicated yadda, yadda and all those adult thingy. But, it also teaches you to lead a simple life and just be happy with what your have right now so that the radar of your complexity notion in your life can be reduced. Agree?
Stepping into 2015 and looking back on the first day I started writing here, is a huge mile stone. Started blogging simply because everyone else is doing it, and honestly, I have no freaking idea of who I am. Just like you, I went through a phase where I am still searching myself. My identity, what kind of person I am, what do i actually want in life. But blogging have always keep my sanity right in place. I know that this is a public site and people can just read it whenever they want to, hence, I tried my best to relate with others through my writing. Not much of a power writer (obviously lah!) but I want readers to know that we are all standing on the same ground and we experience almost the same thing in our process of searching ourselves. We might not be in the same boat but we definately can relate to each other.
This year I have this sort of vision passing before my eyes telling me that 2015 is going to be a very challenging year. 2014 was a whole new world for me. I finally make more friends than what I have in my social circle. LOL! and I enjoy my life nevertheless. Marathon is my biggest life motivator and it reminds me that impossible is possible. You just need to push yourself. In order to test my strength before I'll be send out to the real world with the real deal, 2015 will be my biggest test. Hopefully I will graduate this year and go for my dreams. Always wanted to be part of journalism world because I want to contribute something through writing. Who knows. I believe, no matter what I choose to be in the future, I hope, I will contribute something to the society. At least part of my life is not wasted on doing something that have no benefit at all.
I have risk my life since the day I was born (you know, my head was being vacuumed during my delivery sebab perut mumy macam lagi best je nk buat port lepak) and then, everything after that, was and is my choice. I was raised in a family where my parents will try their best to provide the best for their children, and me being me, I will go against their will because we have different ideas on what is best (10 years after, I realised that they were always right). But no matter, my life decisions took me to where I am today and I will never change it for anything else. Right now, I won't settle for anything less because I never taught myself to do so. I will keep pushing myself to that extra limit because now I know that anything is possible. Even so, in the name of God, I am very happy with what I have today. Although it is not as much as everyone else, I am still living a better life than some who have a hard time to even feed themselves a slice of bread. Nothing less from Him to me, but just enough for me to get through this 23 years of living.
Thus, this post is just to remind myself and hopefully whoever that is reading it right now that life is a process of finding who you are and through that journey, countless blessing will be showered upon you even if you make mistakes along the way. Live your life a little. Take that risk in living your life not because of YOLO, but because through risk, you can see what others can't. Through risk, you will do things that others can't. And through that little leap of faith, even if you fall while taking the leap, you will always find way to stand back again and run. Only by taking risk, you will find your true potential. Don't be scared of your own fear that you create in your mind.
Today, at this very moment, despite all the fun and craziness in my life, my prayers are still the same. It was a long journey I suppose but time flies like a bullet! How can 4 years past by just like that. Indeed, God's love comes in many way. Have you find your way?
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